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Busy Weekend

Well, it is late, and I should be in bed, but I thought I would quickly (?) blog about the last few days.

First, on Wednesday, we went to my genetsists appointment at RIH. They come here about 2-3 times a year, and they had a cancellation, so we were able to get in. As far as having children goes, they don't seem to think that there should be a problem. They gave me some blood work to do, and I was only able to have have part of it done, so I will get the rest done this week. It takes about 8 weeks to get the results. I was able to get my CF testing done, too. As far as having a child of ours having Turners' Syndrome, she didn't think I would pass it on to the baby, so I am very happy about that. I am not sure that I mentioned this b4, but there is an "x" missing from one of my chromosones. Odd, hey?

On Thursday, the Christmas spirit finally I made some cookies, the first of about 10 dozen (types). Yay! I am bringing some home to my family, as well as t…

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 25 and 26

Day 25 The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I fully believe the reason that I am alive today is that God healed me when I was born! I am sure that most of you know that I was born with various medical problems, and that I should have died..if not at birth, then shortly after. I got my records from when I was born, and it so amazing what all I went through.

But, on another note, I think I am alive today the same as anyone else the grace of God..his protection, etc.

Day 26 Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

I have thought of giving up on life once in my life (well, "once" meaning in a span of a few months). I had some depression awhile back, and I did consider (although I don't think I was really serious about it) taking my life. I even was going through my meds, and figuring out what would go "best". Ok..sick, I know..and not very Christmas-like. I think mainly, it was because I just didn't know where to tur…

Where are you, Christmas?

I don't know what it is this year, but I just can't get into the Christmas Spirit. I really could just skip it, and be ok with it. I was reading a blog, and there was a list that they had already done, and it made me ill, just thinking about it (and she has two small children), and a list of the things that they wanted to do. Still made me ill. I have done things to try and make me feel Christmas-y. I have walked through malls, glistening with Christmas lights (that was very nice, I must admit) I had Starbucks' and T.H's Christmas drinks (in Christmas cups, mind you). I have even had egg nog. I have put up our tree, even decorated around here a bit. I have attended two Christmas Concerts...I have even watched a Christmas movie or two..and I still feel down. I am still trying to sort it all out...sigh.

Anker and I have both been sick. I am getting over mine, and he is still sick:( He actually had to bow out of the Christmas play (the one I went to tonight), b/c he is jus…

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 21, 22, 23 &24

Day 21 (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

To be honest, I really don't get this question...I mean..what do they mean "what do you do"? LOL..Ok..I JUST re-read this question...I thought it meant if BOTH of us were in an accident..ok. Well, I would probably feel really bad, and probably go and visit them (if I could), or pray really hard for forgiveness, and I would probably feel guilty that we had the fight in the first place.

Day 22 Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I wish I hadn't compromised on my morals. This is something that I will always wish that I hadn't done.

Day 23 Something you wish you had done in your life.

I wish I had done more schooling. Gotten more a "career". I kept putting this off, mainly because 1) I didn't REALLY know what I wanted to do (I still don't), and 2) It is so hard to get into secondary education, and I just kept thinking that I w…

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 17,18,19 &20

I am getting down to the wire, people!!

Day 17 A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Well, obviously The Bible has been the most influential book I have read. As far as others? I really loved Redeeming Love by Francine Rivers. In my opinion, every one should read it, and every man should read it twice. It's the "modern" story of Gomar, set in in th e 1800's (I's been awhile), and it's sooo good!!! It's definitely a book that I want to own.

Day 18 Your views on gay marriage.

Please don't hate me, and I hope I don't lose any friends over this,'s wrong. Plain and simple, and I don't understand why other Christians don't feel the same way. Did God create two men? No, he created man and woman. That being said, however, I don't believe that we should be gay bashers, and love them, but don't encourage their life style.

Day 19 What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Really, thi…

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 13, 14, 15, & 16

Okay, so time is really of the essense, here, and I would really like to just get on with blogging about more important the weather (snowy) and Christmas (I can't really seem to get in the spirit yet).

I woke up with a cold this morning. Yesterday, one of my pills didn't go down properly, and it made a scratch in my throat..and this morning, I woke up with a cold!

This weekend is going to be busy! Looking forward to it, though!

Day 13...A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
I really don't have a band or an artist that has gotten me through some tough times..I DID, however, really enjoy the "Shout to the Lord" album when I was in the hospital in 1996. This last time, I enjoyed several songs that my SIL put on an MP3 Player for me.

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

I really don't have a hero that has let me down...maybe Sandi Patty when she got her divorce years ago..I really loved her..she was…

Days 11 and 12, and an Update!

Day 11 .....Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

I would have to say my smile. A lot of people (ok, mainly family) have complimented me on my smile. I don't know what else to say, because if I say anything more, it will sound like I am bragging! Anyway...I actually like it, too (the smile, not the bragging!), so I thought I would put it in for this "Truth".

Day 12 ...Something you never get compliments on.

I don't know if this really counts, or not..but I thought about it, and I think I do very well is living with less than (maybe) I want or need. I don't know how else to word it. I don't like to say "going without", b/c I really (at least most of the time!!) don't feel that I go "without". I guess what I mean is..I don't have the newest things. We don't even have a new TV, we don't have a Blue-Ray, nice furniture, etc. We never go on nice vacations (or even a night away...or if we do, we stay at peopl…

Thirty Days of Truth, Days 9 and 10

I am going to start doubling up on these, since it is nearing December, and I have have other thing to write about..ok, not really, but this is taken WAY too long...

Day 09 Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Probably most of my friends that have drifted, are all now on Facebook. I have one friend, from Calgary, who used to be a really good know, those ones who would spend hours w/ you on the phone. We were both single at the time, so we would complain on how we hated our single life, etc. Sadly, there were also times where we would go through months where we didn't talk. This was mainly on her part. Even though she is on FB, we don't talk much. I find this really sad:(

I am also sad because one of my best friends has drifted. It's really no ones fault. She is just very bush with work, and her family. I would love to talk w/ her about once a week, but she is very busy, and with me working 4 nights a week, well, it's hard to connect. But, we a…

Thirty Days of Truth, Day 8

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like s**t.

I have started this post twice, and each time, I have a different answer....There are probably a few people that have made my life hell.

To start off with, there are a few bosses, one Dr. in Regina who I worked with, and a few in Calgary that were so bad, I really should have reported them! They were down right abusive and mean, and rude (although, w/ one of my bosses, we also did have some fun times together, too. She was probably the most social bosses that I had..we'd go out to dinner a lot..but yah, definitely mean). They would be your friend one day, then rude to you the next. They were all at Doctors' offices! The Doctor in Regina would yell at me in front of patients! I don't know why I stuck it out. I would cry nearly every day at these jobs..yes every day. I wouldn't go to church sometimes, b/c I didn't want to be around "happy/perfect" people. I was in a depression, b/c I hated my…

So Tired....

I didn't blog yesterday, mainly b/c I just didn't want I thought I would take a break in the Thirty Days of Truth, and post what has been on my mind and heart the last few days (among many thoughts..LOL). Now, please bare (bear??) with me on this..I know compared to A LOT of people (including people that I know), my life is pretty darn easy. I don't have any kids (among some of my thoughts..more on that in a minute), I really do like my job, on the most part my health is ok (more in that in a minute), I am "free", blah, blah, so I know to some of you reading this, it may sound like I am complaining, and maybe I am..just a bit..but here goes..

I am tired! SO tired. I am tired of my on-going health issues. When people ask how I am doing, I really don't know what to say. Yes, compared to March, I am great (and I am...I know it), but there are still several things that they are working on. My cyst, the fact that I may have MS, the fact that I will always …

Thirty Days of Truth, Day 7

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living (for).

I have had this up for the last couple of hours while called some people, and I started a cleaning/organizing project. I am about to out to run some errands, so I should probably do this before I don't get to it.

I had to think about this for a bit, b/c while there are some obvious people in my life, I was thinking of people that maybe weren't so obvious..however, I decided to go with the most obvious, because, well, THIS person HAS made my life worth living...

This person came into my life just over 4 years ago...I can't imagine my life without them! This person, is of course, my HUSBAND!! I love him very much!!!

We met online in 2006, and then he started calling me every day...we talked about most everything...then we met, and started dating, and a few months later, we were engaged:)
I can't believe it has been 3 years since we have gotten married!! I know our life hasn't been perfect, but we somehow make it…

Thirty Days of Truth, Day 6

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

There are a few things that came to mind as I was thinking of this yesterday. About 3 or 4 things came up almost instantly that I would never want to have to do.

Considering, though, that we are trying to have a baby (or at least are working our working our way towards it), there is one thing that I would never want to be faced with.

I never want to have to chose between my life, or the baby's life.

My view of abortion, in nearly every circumstance, is pretty much black and white. It's wrong. Life begins at conception. Period. There are only a couple of instances where it MAY BE okay, and even then, I am not sure. One, would be if the mother's life is in SERIOUS danger, and the other would be if it were a product of incest.

The reason that this comes to mind, if we end up having to use clomid, we could end up getting pregnant w/ twins, and twins would be a no-no. One baby would be hard enough on my body. They pretty much said th…

Thirty Days Of Truth, Day 5

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Well, this one's a no-brainer.

I hope to one day have a baby!

Ever since I was about 5, I have day dreamed about being a mom. I am not sure if this dream will ever happen, but it's fun to think and dream about. The road to fertility is tough for us, and not just b/c of my PCOS, but b/c of my recent health issues. If being a mom doesn't happen, I will be very sad, but I think I am already (being) prepared for the "no" answer.

30 Days of Truth..Day 4

**** Updated/Edited Nov 17..See Day 3's post partially pertaining to this post.

Day 4.. Something you have to forgive someone for.

I have been thinking about this all day, trying to figure out what I should say. I am usually pretty good at forgiving people. I don't hold a lot of grudges, and I usually move on, and don't think about it. There are a few things, however, that have happened, that I seem to think about on and off. Not so much as a grudge (at least I don't think so), but just things that I should probably either go to God or to the person (probably both), and let them know that I have forgiven them.

I won't say specifically what it was, but there was an incident a few years back where I confided someone, and they really felt that they needed to someone else that I loved (what I told them). I realised that they did this (or wanted to) at the time because they felt that that they were doing the right thing. I really felt (and still do) that it wasn't th…

Thirty Days of Truth, Day 3

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Wow..this is a tough one! There are a lot of things that I have done that I have regretted in life, but there really isn't one thing that I haven't forgiven myself for...hmm....:)

There are a few things that I have to forgive myself for, but I won't post them here. I want to be careful that I don't involve a lot of people when I am talking about my personal thoughts, etc. I really try (at least, I think I do!!) to talk about just our life, and casually, when appropriate, talk about other family members or friends. I only name a few of my family members on here in general, and sometimes only use their first initial. When I talk about really personal things, I usually don't bring other ppl in it..or if I do, I don't say their name (ok, now I will have to go through my posts, and see if I have actually done this!!). Anyway, this isn't really part of today's post!!

So...yes, there have been times when I have…

Day 02 Something you love about yourself.

I had to think about this for a minute, I was typing out one thing, but I am going to use that in a later day/post.

I love that I am a good listener, and (generally) don't give people advice, or try to "fix" things. I know this probably doesn't seem like it on Facebook, but generally, I don't. If someone wants to talk, I listen, while I sometimes bring things back to myself (which, by the way, I have been doing less of, unless I think that it helps them), I really just listen, and don't tell them what to do (unless they ask, of course). I think I am a pretty easy person to talk to. I just want to be a friend to them, and be there for them.

Vancouver Trip, and new job

Last Saturday was the funeral of my friend. It went well (as well as funerals can go, I guess), and the church was nearly full w/ friends and family. Our pastor did a great job, and her husband and several people did tributes, and her daughter sang a song. I don't know why, but I never cried. It really bothered me. I did cry a bit at the end, but that was all. I was very sad, of course, and I am sad because I will never see her or talk to her here on earth. It has really hit our church, especially our pastor and his wife very hard. No one can understand why it happened. It will be a long road for her family, especially her daughters.

We did end up having the "Light the Night" party the previous Sunday at our church. We thought of not doing, b/c of our friend dying, but the girls' dad said that the girls were looking forward to it. We do this every year, to encourage the kids to come to the church instead of trick or treating. I am sure that some kids go out T&T-i…

30 Days of Truth..Day 1

****I realized when I was in bed last night that I don't think that regretting quitting the piano really refers to this first question....I guess there are a lot of things that I hate (or dislike/want to change, etc) about myself that could fit into this or any other question....but I was thinking about one that that I don't like, something that I think is very true, and that I wish I could change...

I always seem to take the easy road when things get tough.

This isn't totally true, but it is true in a lot of aspects in my life. I think in part, it is b/c that I am so tired of trying, that I just up and decide to take/do what's easy. But, I think that I am doing better at other areas.
I am following a blog of a semi-friend of mine, and she is doing 30 days of that I would be able to find the information, here is the full 30 days of truth..and I will answer each question one at a time.…


My heart is breaking tonight with some news I heard earlier this morning. I was going to title this blog post "Death", because I have been thinking of death the last few days...what it would be like to lose a child. I actually came upon a blog, who's friends daughter died of a brain tumour (she was 5, I think??). I ended up finding this girls funeral service online, as I wanted to see ballet the girls dance class was doing. It was a very moving service (don't worry, I didn't waste an hour of my time watching some random child's funeral, in case you were thinking I was odd) and it got me thinking of burying your children. A parent should never have to bury their child. I am also following some blogs of BLM's (Baby Loss Mamma's), where their babies were born prematurely, or had pre-existing conditions/diseases in the womb, and were not expected to live. So, every few days or so, I usually glance over them, and read the newest posts. I don't know wha…


Yes, I couldn't find a good title for this blog post!!

Thought I would update on some stuff happening around here. First trip to Vancouver went well. I decided to make it fun, and just enjoy my time. And, for the most part, I did:) I stayed at my cousins, who is fairly close to VGH. I wish I had a ton of money, b/c then I could have walked from Coffee Shop to Coffee shop!! It was fairly nice two of the days I was there. I spent time visiting w/ Kelly and Sarrah, which was really nice. I really hadn't talked much w/ Sarrah (my cousins wife), so it was great to get to know her. I loved spending time w/ their girls. I felt fairly safe walking around Vancouver, and I did a lot of walking, including, walking back from VGH to their house on Thursday!!

My appts went ok..My appt at the MS clinic didn't really bring up anything new. She did say that she thought that I did have MS, but I will have to have another MRI, and an LP sometime. To be honest, that is the last thing on…

Lost and Found!

I really don't feel like blogging tonight, but it HAS been awhile, so I wanted to just do a quick update.

It's been a beautiful few days here...nice and warm, and the leaves are turning, so it is just beautiful.

We had one of my brothers and his wife over the other night, so we cleaned the house like we hadn't cleaned it in awhile...and made a nice supper. I spent the next afternoon w/ K, and we just hung out and did fun things:) Library, an antique store, and coffee:) That evening, my OTHER brother and his wife came, and we visited and ended up having supper together. Then, we looked at old pictures. (more on that later)

Yesterday, a friend of mine called and asked if I wanted to do coffee...I said yes (I hardly EVER refuse coffee dates), and we had a nearly two hour visit. I had a few things to do, including go to the WI clinic to make sure that I don't have a blood clot in my leg. It has been sore since Tuesday, and I was worried about it..thankfully (well, maybe not t…

(Re) Welcome to my (our) blog, Why do I have a blog, and Our Vancouver Trip.

Thanks to everyone for wanting to be on my blogging list!! I hope you don't think that I am trying to "celebrate" myself, or anything, but I thought some people may want to know what is going on with us, and my health, etc, and this a more confined, private way to do that. This is more than just a health update on me, it is also about my thoughts, and our life. I don't want to put a lot of my health info on Facebook, so I thought if anyone wants, I would give them an opportunity to be a reader:) If you don't want to be a reader, then please just let me know, and I can take you off the list. I may decide to make this public, but right now, I will just have it private. I usually let ppl know when I have blogged on Facebook, so you don't have to keep looking every day to see if there has been an update. I won't post pics, b/c frankly, I don't know how:) I also just want to let you know that the things I say here, I don't always want everyone on FB t…

A free t-shirt, and other Happenings...

For those of you who may know, I tend to frequent A LOT of blogs! I think I am following about 20 right now. Most of them are adoption blogs, so I love reading their journey's....

This morning, I checked on one my favourite blogs, (sorry, don't know how to encript it), to see that I had won a t-shirt!! She had decided she would do a give-away from her friends adoption blog...SHE (Andrea) had bought 10 t-shirts from Abby, who is adopting from Ethiopia. Anyway...I had commented on Andrea's (babeofmyheart) blog, not thinking anything of it...I didn't check it last night (I usually check on them at least once a day), so I didn't know she had updated...SOOO this morning, I went to her blog, and I see that she had drawn the names of the commenters from the day before..and sure enough..she drew my name!! That totally made my day!! If you are looking for a t-shirt, and want to buy one for a good cause..then go and check…

Thinking of Changing Names...

..of my blog that is...some changes have taken place (ok, not CHANGES), just things have come to light..that have made me recently..(ok 5 minute ago) think of changing blog names. I am also wondering about going public..or maybe I should just start a new (another) blog althogether?? I would love to meet some blogging ladies online..and you really can't do that if your blog if private..of course, I could comment on the blogs I already read...How DO bloggers become friends, anyway??

Anyway..had kind of a blah weekend..and came home to cat throw up all over our bed. Seriously was not impressed. I nearly killed our cat right there. But today, I made a trip to the laundramat, and washed our duvet, it's cover and our mattress cover.

Sooo..should I go public, or add another blog? What name should it be?

A Long Overdue Post

It's been just over a month since I updated, so I figured that it was time.

In some ways, there really hasn't been much happening, but in has been quite busy.

-Went to my family's for the Canada Day Long Weekend. Had a great time w/ family and friends. Even had some fireworks:) Camped w/ our new tent, and we got rained out (not really, but we did get soaked), but it was on the last day, so it really didn't matter. Even took my sleeping machine with me! Enjoyed our new the "porch", etc. Spent time reading, and just enjoying nature.

-July 12-16, helped w/ our church's VBS program. We did "High Seas" this year, and it was really fun. It was a beautiful week for it, and we had about 60+ kids come out.

-July24, attended a friends wedding. It was a hot day, but a lovely wedding.

-Also baby sat some of my friends' kids, so that was fun being w/ them. The money was also nice:)

-July 27, we celebrated our 3rd anniversary. Had a nic…


Just a few more things I forgot to mention....

I am handing out resumes this week, and I did a bit last week, too. I am really hoping that this program works better for me..and they do their job, and help me find one:)

I really want to add some pizzazz to my life..good stuff, of course! While on our trip down to the coast last Thursday, Mom was talking about a book she was reading...I think I really need a life coach..but would probably do better getting some coaching from someone else. Our life is boring (ok..I know our day to day life is busy...but not our over all life), and needs more..well, LIFE to it!!

I am STILL losing my hair...I think from all the health problems. I am getting the home oxygen team to come (or me go there), to assess my O2 levels I seem to be having sore legs when I walk up hill.

I went to a wedding ceremony on the 12th of June for a daughter of some church friends of ours. It was very nice. I tend to not go to ceremonies where I am not invited to the r…

The Wedding

I know it's been a week since we've been home, but I just have been too lazy to post!!

I am doing ok..kind of blah. Anker's back is really bad..I may even go in and help him tomorrow for a bit. Things are just kind of blah all around. I am gaining a bit of weight that I lost, and I feel so lonely at times. I really don't have a lot of friends here. Maybe that is partially my fault. I have tried to be friends with people. They are either older, or younger than me. I know, woo is me, right??

SOOO....the weekend! Yes, we FINALLY got my brother married off, Praise Jesus! It was a fun wedding..AND SO beautiful!! We were all worried that the day would be rainy..or at least cold. The parents had been looking on the Internet checking weather for the last two weeks!! It such a simple but elegant wedding..totally Luke:) It was all outside, except for the dance.

Getting down there was a bit of a gong show...and I won't get into it.. but basically, the person that we thought was…

34 is just a number, right?

Well, today is my birthday, and I have to admit, I was dreading just a bit. But it was a very nice day. I was taken to Starbucks twice by my friends (two different ones), and I ended up spending the rest of the time at SB reading my book. Then I headed to the library, where I found not one, but TWO US Weekly NEW (ish) magazines, where as I usually have to have them place them on hold for me. Came home and quickly got ready, and helped Anker put everything into the car. He had made supper and we had a small dinner party for me at the church. Fun times. I got some lovely gifts, and came home around 6:30. (We had to have to early, b/c of Bible Study that is held there). I also had ppl call me today, which has been lovely. I was taken out to SB for the second time today, by my very good friend...came home and Facebooked the rest of the evening away. I also spent most of the morning on Facebook..I loved all my bday wishes:) Anker isn't feeling the greatest, so he is off to bed..wher…

Doctor's Appts, and the Like

Just a quick update...yes, I am alive..and doing quite well. We have had some cool weather and some rain this week, with very little sun. Quite a difference from the HOT weather in April we had, for sure.

Nothing too exciting going on. Just hanging out, watching tv, reading..etc. I have started reading books for the first time in about a year. I do admit that I like Danielle Steel books (well, most of them), and I just finished (almost finished one) reading her two newer ones. I think my next book I will read is a book my mom gave me for my birthday about two years ago. It looks good, but a bit sad.

Last weekend was very quiet...just basically hung around and didn't do a whole lot. I do go to a movie with a friend.."The Backup Plan", which was quite cute, and I also read a lot. We also went to friends BBQ, which was very was "BYOM", so I brought a lamb chop, and it was sooo good!! I also went to a Mary Kay party (at the same friends) on Friday, and it…


Maybe it's the Friday night blues..I don't know, but I feel kind of blah tonight:( I haven't felt well all afternoon, and it's a bit concerning. I feel a bit bloated, and Anker says my stomach seems a bit larger. The scale has stayed the same for a week, and while that is nice, I would rather be losing. So, I am wondering, while I am not gaining fat, maybe I am gaining fluid? We are heading to see Dr. Frank Ryan in Vancouver on Monday for the day, so I am hoping that he can help and see what is up.

Actually, today has been rather nice. I pretty much just read and did laundry all day...I had to run out to the bank earlier, but that was pretty much it. I felt spoilt, today, as two nights in a row, Anker has made supper! Earlier this evening, I just sat outside, and read my was sooo nice and warm!!

So, last weekend, Anker and went to my parents place for Mother's Day. We had been half planning to go, especially since Mom had done SO MUCH for me while I was in…