I wasn't going to post tonight, but as I was reading one of the blogs I frequent, I had an idea. The U.S celebrates their Thanksgiving tomorrow, and I am reminded that I have alot to be thankful for. Lately, it seems that I have struggled with this, and the area of contentment. We live in a small apartment, we seem to be always financially strapped, I still don't have a job, and although I am feeling MUCH better, my hair is still falling out, and my leg is still going numb, and Anker has been sick twice in the last 3 weeks. I can get down, almost to the point of depression, crying, etc. Yes, I believe that there are times for this...but I also need to be thankful for the things I have, and that I am basically, for the most part, happy.
In the last week or so, I have learned that a friend of ours found out that her cancer has returned, a boy died at an airport, our second/third cousin died in a head-on collision (only a 6 month baby surviving), some friends that I know just got laid off from their jobs. The blog that I was just at is a mom of a 5 yr old girl who is fighting brain cancer. Compared to that, what have I got to complain about? I have my family, and a few close friends, we DO have a place to live, two GREAT churches who love and care for Anker and I, even though I really do NEED a job, my days are pretty much my own, and I can spend them however I like, my husband is (when he isn't sick), is able to go out make a living for us. I could go on and on, but I think you get the idea.
Am I where I really want to be in life? Yes and no..I love being married, and even though times are tough, I am happier married than single. I would have loved to have been a mom by now, but that isn't happening, and obviously, God knows that now isn't the time. I am trying to understand why this hasn't happened yet, but I am thankful that God knows best..in HIS will and timing!! I just must keep on loving and serving him, and waiting for his perfect timing!!
Well, I will come off my soap box now:) This is for me as well as for whoever reads this.
Not much new for us. I am seeing a neurologist Jan 7, to do some more assessment. I think my hair is falling out b/c of my PCOS, so I am seeing a dermatologist Dec 12. I am in our Churchs Christmas play as an extra, so that has kept me a bit busy. That's pretty much it. Not much new.
One final thing...my Uncle was driving to Prince George from my family's ranch (where he and my aunt live), and he was side-swiped by a low-bed truck. He was in his company's truck, and that is probably what saved him. He is doing ok, but I think pretty shocked still. We are thankful to God for sparing him!!
Sorry so long between postings....I have nothing exciting to post!!