Monday, May 23, 2011

Not Perfect..and some Family News

Happy Victoria Day to all my Canadian Friends!! I hope your weekend was wonderful.

Ours was pretty quiet. Pretty much just hung out all weekend. We may go out today, but since the weather isn't nice...we may not do much. I watched some movies, and I went out a couple of times. I ended up going to church alone, and my friend took me out to a new restaurant in town..called Cora..it was very good!! I went to the park twice to just enjoy the sun, and read. It was beautiful for Thursday, I took the day off, mainly because my right ear, which has been plugged for a week, was still bothering me. I just enjoyed the day. Our seems to be having problems again. Thankfully, it's not a big deal, but I did got to the place that fixed it the last time, and they told us that it was an oxygen sensor. We were going to go camping, but we found out that it was going to rain..then we were going to go to my parent's, but we decided to stay home, b/c of our burning too much fuel. We were both disappointed, but in the end, for the most part, it was an ok weekend. I went to the grocery store a couple of times, and also to the mall:) Not sure yet what we are doing today.

Last weekend, I was in a bit of a funk...there were a few things, that I felt that I should have been invited to, and I (we) wasn't. I know...I was being immature...but that is how I felt. Something even happened on Friday that I felt that I should have been invited to (to be fair, they probably thought we were going away). I LOVE our church family..really, I do. I just feel that I (we) get forgotten sometimes. We don't get invited out a lot, and we certainly don't go out a lot (with friends, or otherwise). I read peoples blogs on how their weekends were full of family/friends stuff, and we just don't do that, and that makes me sad. Granted, I don't have any family in town, so that doesn't help. I just wish I had some girls' nights, or we had some couple friends..ok, we do have one couple friend, but we don't get out w/ them a lot!! I hope that w/ summer being here, we can get out and do more stuff!!

So, two weekends ago, was Mother's Day Weekend, and I was dreading it! Thankfully, it was fine, and I didn't have any (or much) sadness. Our retreat was great..and I loved just spending time visiting w/ friends. The speaker was good too, for the most part.

I came back from that wknd to some sad news of my friend D losing her baby at 23 weeks:( I heard before I left that she was having problems and she was in the hospital, but I was hoping that things would sort themselves out, and that she could continue to carry him longer. I was heartbroken for her, and her husband. For every woman that wants to be a mother, there is one (or more) that have experienced an infant loss. I did call her last week, and she is doing "OK", but having a tough time.

I want to vent a bit about perfect people...I have a few on my FB friends list..you know the kind..the ones that skinny (or maybe not skinny, but better looking than me!), the perfect husband, the perfect kids, the perfect house, have an amazing job (or hobby) that they love and are good at..or better still, don't have to work. The perfect Christian...they are involved in ALL areas of their church. Their weekends are filled w/ family, and friends. I have almost deleted a few (and I think I have deleted a few), b/c I can hardly stand their statuses, or their pages. I feel so inferior..I do. I am not perfect, not skinny (not even fit), certainly no kids..and I love my hubby, but he is not perfect..our house is too small, and it is a place for DH's projects, so I don't even want to keep it clean anymore...and well, my job is fine..but it's definitely not what I would call a career (although, I am very blessed to have a job). I just feel sad, b/c I wish our life were a bit more...normal!! Normal people our age would looking after their kids, house, doing a full time job...money (or at least more than we do now). Sometimes, I feel that even w/ my friends, I feel that I don't want to be with them, b/c they have more $$ than us. Although they don't flash it..you can see it..their house, car, trips...and we don't have that. Sometimes, I do feel happy that our life is quietly paced. I can get up when I want..watch tv in the morning if I want to..spend time on FB..go and sit in the park...and don't get me wrong..I am grateful for those times. But there are a lot of times where I wish our lives were normal and crazy!! I see people having babies, buying houses, going on trips...and I just wish that were us. I guess the Lord knows what we need..when we need it!!

Well, on for my news!! My brother and his wife adopted a beautiful baby boy earlier this month. They got him from birth, and they took him home from the hospital!! Such a beautiful story of love and adoption....they named him Hayden!! I did go and see him last weekend for the day, and I got to love on him for a couple of hours!! They are all doing well!!

Have a great day, everyone!

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