Well, I kind of posted a blog-like entry on my Instagram today, so I thought I would post it more elaborately here.
**This is what I wrote on IG**
I cannot blv that Christmas break is OVER!! I am trying to soak the final few hours in! Last night, I was in a bit of a funk, but today I am better. I didn't know what to do...read (books, mags, blogs??), watch tv/movies; walk, journal, devotions, clean, go to the library, or even make some meals....or should I blog? I ended up watching a part of a movie, then Anker and I ran uptown to do a few things. We came home at around 2, and I have just being laying low. I should do a few things (clean, meal prep), but I just have been reading some magazines, and made a few calls. We had an early supper of leftovers at 4, and now I have relaxing. I have Stingray Music on the TV, and I am airing out our bedroom. Anyway....these last two weeks have been amazing, and I am not fully ready to go back on Monday, but I partly am. I am ready to see my friends and the kids again. I am ready to make money again....lol. I will miss having the full day to do what I want, but I am kind of ready to get back into routine. I am thankful that I can have an awesome job where I get these long breaks...when I can recharge my brain and my soul. I need these times to relax, recharge, and rejuvenate...I think more than ever these last few years. Maybe it's bc I am getting older, or it is bc I work with kids, or it could be that my brain gets too overwhelmed and overstimulated. I am finding that I am becoming less and less of wanting or needing to be around people, and more and more wanting to be on my own. It's weird....I know. It's the time of my life, I guess, and I won't make any excuses for it. I love being around people, but I also like my downtime. Some people have a "word" they do or try to be each year....I have never done this before, but I am thinking that this year I might. What word should I do/be? I will think about and get back to u! Looking forward to what God has for in 2019!!
So, so that it didn't become a book, I thought I would elaborate a bit more.....though I will probably just be repeating myself. New Year is a like a blank book...with 365 pages ready to be written....I saw that on IG and FB somewhere....I definitely agree. I love that each day is a new page to write on, and every year is a blank book with pages ready to be filled. I definitely think that as I get older, I am finding that I am wanting to more and more alone, and less and less with people. I love hanging out with my friends and family, and of course, I need it...but I also love to have some of the wknd to be alone...to read, journal, etc. People invigorate some people, and to others, they tire and stress them out. I love a bit both :)
Another year gone sometimes has me thinking....or maybe it is just this year! Seriously, usually with every birthday, and the end of a year, I do get thinking about life (and of course, much more over the course of the year). Life is fleeting. It is mess, and it is hard. It is also fun, exciting, blessed/a blessing, happy...well, you get the idea. Everyone has their own way have living...they have their own truth. Everyone's on a journey of some kind. No one is walking an easy path, and if they are (say, or look it), they are lying (to themselves and to you). Whether you are single, married, divorced, widowed, trying to have a baby, suffered a miscarriage, stillbirth, child loss, suffered the loss of a parent, family member for a close friend, we all are on our own journeys. No ones lives and journeys are the same.
Ok...enough reflection....:)
Thoughts on Last Year:
I was thinking about 2018, and I have to say that it was a pretty good year. Well, let me retract that....it started out kind of rough for me, health-wise. I had some weird Menopause (?) or PCOS (?) issues, that then followed some various weird pains. Then, as quickly as it came, it left. I did see a specialist, but so far, nothing else has happened...Yay!!! As far as Anker's health, it is been pretty good....so we can't complain in that department. We are thankful that neither of us got sick when everyone else got so sick...we attribute that to God, and the flu shot!!! I don't eat super-healthy, and I didn't get sick.....so, I am super thankful. I did get sick the beginning of September, but it was only for a few days. Ok...sorry, I went on a bit of a tangent...Ha! So, back to this year...I think I can say that it was a good year, and probably even better than 2017. The highlight was probably going to my parents' (yes, each and every time); I think we went 4 or 5 times (or I did). I also loved doing some house sitting for my friends. I loved going to my cousin's wedding on Victoria Day Wknd, and our Family picnic on the Holiday Monday. I also went to Calgary twice with my sister, and that was super fun! Of course, going to Victoria to see family was really fun!!!! And, I also decided to start reading books again this summer...and I decided to stop reading two of my trash magazines. #growth I also have started putting money away in an account that I can't easily access (for the summer, or whenever we really need it).
Plans:
I don't know what this year brings...I don't know of any major plans, or changes in our lives. We will just keep on keeping on!!! My friends and I are thinking about going to Phoenix, where our other friend lives, but I don't think it will happen, as I have to get a passport. As far as any other plans for this year go, we really have no clue! We just take things day by day.
Goals:
I don't do goals or resolutions. I have in the past....but I usually end up breaking them. When we were growing up, our family would have promises that we would make in the coming year. Yes, my family still does this...and when we go home, and if we are there, we participate in it. We do it on Christmas morning, after Dad reads the Christmas Story, and we have communion. When we were young, it was something like, rubbing someone else's feet, or making a sibling's bed. As we got older, it was something more "mature" (for lack of a better word), or intentional, like spending time with someone in our church or community, or spending more time with God, etc. As for me, this year... I will hopefully start to exercise at/on our school's gym equipment. It's free, and easy access, so why not? A few others at work have done it, so I figure I might as well try it! We are trying to continue to put money away (that sounds a lot fancier than it is), so we have a few bucks if and when we need it. I also want to try to read through the Bible in a year. My Bible App You Version has one (it does every year), so I am going to at least attempt to try it. And of course, working on our marriage is a good thing. I think I need to pray on how I can do that...Marriage is kind of different for everyone...our marriage is different b/c he doesn't work, he is older, and he is health issues. I think maybe that God is making me realize that *I* could/should be the change for/in our marriage, instead of me trying to "change" or "improve" him/or or "make"him change or improve our marriage. Everyone seems have a word they want to be or do each year. I don't know of a word that I should do or be...maybe intentional? Kind? Maybe a bit of both?
On a more lofty Goal, I also want to try to make some money from my blog. Like I said in a post last night, I really don't know on how to go about doing that. I actually looked to see if there is a blogging conference that I could attend, and the closest one that I could find was a digital marketing/social media one in Calgary in June....so, maybe my mom and I could go together?? :) (I just checked on it again, and the one I was talking about really doesn't fit in with what I want to d
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Great post! I had never heard of Stingray Music before, so I looked it up. :) I agree that I also feel a bit excited at the beginning of every new year for the "blank pages" and all the possibilities. I'm very thankful that you didn't keep having the weird issues (menopause/pains) that you were worried about and that you and Anker never got seriously sick. I also want to try to work more on my marriage. I need to read more of "You can be the wife of a happy husband: Discovering the keys to marital success" (several friends highly recommended that one to me and it's like a devotional book) and re-read Gary Chapman's "The Five Love Languages" book. That one is so good and right in line of what you were talking about. I need to refresh myself with it. I hope you can find ways to promote and earn some extra $ with your blog. :)
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